Welcome and What I Will Post About
Some of you may have already felt this coming…
After a very intense profound phase in my life during which I felt I had to go through hell to advance to the next level of my personal growth and healing, I have rarely experienced more clarity and purpose and I feel it is now the time to come back to serve others, in full presence.
I will be going in a direction which I believe will be for the remainder of my life…
It will be what I dedicate the rest of my life to.
So it’s a heartfelt goodbye to the old, and a welcoming to the new…
One could say it is a little like a leaving behind of my former self.
What I will share the coming weeks, I believe to be my absolute best stuff. Radically life-changing material. The message that I created for my self first and foremost.
Not that I take a complete departure from everything about the old, I still very much resonate with a lot of the old, but there were some flaws (not that those are fully gone – I’m still human ;)).
A lot of what I shared is still very much valid and what I (re)believe in.
For many things I’ve kinda gone full circle and have come back to many of the same beliefs that I have previously shared back when I focused on mindset exclusively.
However they now have an added dimension and come from,
a deeper knowing,
a more conscious connection to my Self and Deepest Truth,
and a wider alignment and integration between the different aspects of my self (mind, body and soul).
They are therefore more effortless and lead to more automatic behaviour (when aware) – in the sense that I do not need to use my mind/thinking to figure out what to do.
One could say the DOing comes from BEing. A full-on BEING: being in mind, being in body, being in heart.
Let me clarify that a little…
When I say being, it is being who you REALLY are, the Higher Self. Without any attachments or labels or things you need to ‘do’.
When you simply are, you do not have to try to be something (you do not have to do to be).
Imagine you ARE love, then loving becomes more effortless, right?
Imagine you are PRESENCE, then connecting becomes more effortless..
Another way to think about it is this,
Think of the BEST times in your life, when you were fully immersed, you were fully in the moment, you were fully present, how much ‘effort’ did joy/love/connection require in those moments? There was no ‘needing to do’.
Similarly when you were fully immersed in a conversation, in nature, in an experience where there was zero distraction but the present experience itself.
This is why even something as trivial as ‘ dating’, the BEST dating advice is to be who you are, nothing more, nothing less.
This is why the biggest disappointments (to both parties in ANY relationship, whether romantic, business, etc.) is when somebody tries to be who they are not, they are acting (without being aware of it) – they are putting on an ACT (doing).
Those of you who have followed me for a while always knew there was an extra spiritual component.
It will still be mindset, but there will be more heartset.
It will still be about self-growth and empowerment, but there will be a stronger spiritual component.
I am by no means saying I am “there”, in a permanent, unaltering, awakened end-state, in this energy. Absolutely not.
Energy (the basis of everything) is transient, changing.
Just look out our emotions, ever-changing, they too are energy. E-motion is energy in motion.
There is no permanence in any thing.
One of the first steps of spiritual awareness is this realization.
Fighting the past, holding onto the present, are equally destructive.
There is nothing real to hold on to – it is both an illusion to think we can hold onto anything or that we can resist something forever.
Truly realizing this we can let go of attachment to ‘any thing’.
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Our Best Message is the Message we Need(ed) The Most
Like I mentioned previously, I believe our best stuff, our writing, our message, our creation is what we at some point need/needed the most.
And this is why I call this MY best stuff. Because I created it first and foremost for myself. It is what I needed. It was/is the message and reminder to myself (which is also to You).
I believe what is best for us, is also our greatest gift to share.
So put yourself out there with YOUR message, with your best stuff too and show up as that!
I write this and use it as a reminder to connect to my Self and the present as fully as I am consciously aware of, and I invite you to do the same.
Ever feel when you are most connected to your Self you are also most connected to another, to nature, to the beauty out there?
Now, my first few posts will be the most ‘radical’ and they may be a little incomprehensible or out of reach and that is ok. At their essence they are the most profound.
I invite you to stay with it.
By that I mean don’t fight any scepticism you may have or resistance you may feel, welcome it instead. This is not about swapping one belief system for another.
Don’t let your current reality close you off to possibility
So whilst I had a big heart before and was very open-minded with a certain degree of understanding and spiritual awarenesss…
Truth and seeking truth had always been one of my highest values, and that can only happen with a truly open mind; the moment we conclude or think we know something, we close off our mind to anything new (when somebody is sure they know or claim they know everything, that is a surefire way to understand that they don’t know!).
And whilst I had a disproportionately developed mind relatively (I was one of the most well-reasoned/logical minded people I know)…
…it was limited by my current experience,
By the limits of intellectual and logical understand, the limits of the mind,
By certain blind spots (conclusions I had made I was unaware of)
By a lesser connection to my own body wisdom, and therefore a lesser integration of body and heart, i.e. the mind was advanced further, followed by heart and a far third, body. None of which in retrospect is surprising – I defaulted to the mind-level of working things out for almost everything. And whilst I used the mind a lot, I also (mis)used and even abused the body (decades of personal experimentation with all types of things does that).
The highest level of understanding comes from a place beyond the mind (beyond intellect, thought), i.e. we can not think our way through everything.
If you feel some resistance here I invite you to pose the follow question, can you think your way through love?
So I invite you to remain questioning yet open, and keep using your mind as a tool – as opposed to letting your current memory/experience/knowledge dictate what truth/reality closing you off to possibility.
Certain ‘knowing’ only comes from experiencing. A knowing that was already always there, we are often simply not connected to it. Connected to our deep inner wisdom that lies at the core of all of us.
Again, not that I claim to fully know/understand either, but the understanding is much deeper through experiencing and from that a deeper integration between every aspect of my self – a stronger harmonization between, mind, body and heart.
Depending on where one is on their spiritual evolution or life’s journey the following may make ‘sense’ already.
I will be sharing from what I have been able to connect to and experience.
And even then I have only had temporary glimpses – I am by no means like the most advanced ssages, or yogis or mystics.
I am not enlightened even though I have had enlightening experiences.
Awakening is not a permanent end-state or static event after which everything automatically changes. One still has to do the Work.
No, it is only a glimpse, and it can be the start of your further awakening, but it may also not be. It depends how consciously one becomes aware of the Self. But it can be part of a radical life transformation.
But it can also be nothing and it can simply inflate one’s spiritual ego.
(can also see how easy it is to fall into that (mental) trap – a recent experience recently gave me that smack in the face – which was good, it was so healing, it gave a profound realization)
It showed me not to become attached even to a more aligned and powerful ego identity or any good feeling no matter how awesome it feels.
So if you even are able to resonate with it a tiny bit, or have the desire to learn how to connect more deeply with what I have shared, then I invite you to stay with me.
Because it is my greatest wish for you to experience this and live as closely connected to your Deepest Self as you can be; as loving, as powerful, as purposeful, and with as much clarity as you can be.
In full love with your self and the world around you.
Or at least bring this into your conscious awareness as much as possible.
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The Realization That Led Me to My Renewed Purpose / What Is There Left in Life To Experience?
After several profound experiences and heightened states of consciousness I feel there is nothing in this life on Earth that can beat that.
Even my other ‘best’ experiences kind of pale in comparison to this – a state where I felt I was the embodiment of love (or peace, or presence), where I was no longer identifying with anything but consciousness itself.
The closest times would be where I felt the most connected – the most connected to my Self, another Self, nature, in full presence.
Once I had experienced this love,
I felt I experienced everything already, at least everything worthwhile.
I asked myself the question, what do I still want to experience, and what do I still want to DO?
I have experienced it all.
What more is there that is greater than the above?
More money?
For what?
For what purpose?
For what experience?
What is left for me here?
And I could only answer that it would have to be as an embodiment of this Love – by that I mean Living Love – bringing the above into daily life, or at least trying to do so as much as I consciously can, which to me means doing things out of love, out of service.
Loving myself, loving every other self, loving life, loving what I do.
All of this is all really the same simultaneous happening. One can not fully exist without the other. That is because love is an inside job.
One of the greatest expressions of that is creation (what I am doing now) and sharing. Creating conversation, community (more on that in the next post (post #4 out of 5). I also believe true artists in ANY thing (creators in essence) create their best stuff when they come from that place.
Personally I believe I was also able to come to this answer because I had already experienced abundance in every area of life at one point already: in terms of women/sex, in terms of finances/wealth, in terms of physique/strength… These are not foreign or new experiences anymore.
Having said this I do not believe it is absolutely necessary to experience physical or earthly abundance first to understand true abundance (in love) at a level that is beyond any of the human/egoic pleasures (again, read this without judgement), but it tends to be much rarer.
It is not uncommon to see this type of bypassing of people on a spiritual path. We often see people on this path being disillusioned with their lack of abundance in above areas, so they now try and seek this wholeness or fulfilment in spirituality, backwards rationalizing they don’t need it. There is a huge difference between not needing something out of spite, out of a mental convincing (a story) to ourselves as to why we don’t need it anymore and not needing it because one truly feels abundant.
Now I am also not saying I am denying myself any of those pleasures, experiences or tools like money – these are all part of the current system But it will be less out of necessity. And it will definitely not be out of a pursuit solely for their sake.
(Fighting those is a form of bypassing too – it creates a separation between you and the world – but that is for another post).
Similarly I will not deny that there are times when a personal loss of some sort can still trigger some emotional pain, but it will be temporary.
Of course I will still have fun on this Earth, our human experience IS about having fun and living an experientially rich and meaningful life! Spiritual people who are unhappy are not spiritual!
Or spiritual people who think everything is bad, sad, miserable…. No…
Going back to the story of what I still have left to do on this Earth, I will share more of my motivation in my next post in this series (post 4 of 5).
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Following up from yesterday’s post the deepest motivation behind my renewed purpose..
On Purpose, Putting Oneself First and Creation
The most loving thing one can do for others is to be selfish for oneself first, in the sense that when you work on You first, you are able to give your best to somebody else. You will be able to love them more than if you’d simply tell yourself you don’t need to love yourself whilst putting all your focus and attention on loving others.
So of course, ultimately my biggest motivation is towards my Self. Realizing my Self. And that IS simultaneous to realizing everything else (i.e. all beings – we are all connected). An ongoing process.
I say of ‘course’ because at the end of it all, I believe this is everybody’s ultimate grander purpose for lack of a better word.
So the focus is on the self as an close as possible expression of the Higher Self.
Said in a different way, start with Your Self first, then extend outwards to your close circle, then extend outwards to the world.
It is also the most humble and truthful way. Believing it is more noble to put anything other than one self first is a delusion no matter what story one creates justifying putting others/the world first. On the surface this sounds unloving and selfish in a negative way, and it may trigger something inside of you, but believing otherwise would be bypassing one’s own work.
So it starts with me, and then, it’s also my family. Not just in terms of being there with/for them but also making sure they have what they need to succeed as best as possible during our temporary time on Earth. So they also have the possibility to grow and help their future generations grow too.
And then in extension it’s my extended family, which is everybody, all of you.
That is where I feel my mission is right now.
It’s not about chasing externally anymore; chasing any places, chasing any temporary highs through whatever means, chasing lust, chasing materialism.
(Again, NOT that any of those things is bad and not that one may not experience those things – I will surely experience all of them myself too! But it will not be the primary goal.)
When I say I can be anywhere right now I mean it.
That does not mean I will stay in one place.
I will of course be more in places that I feel are suiting my body and my being in a healthier way and those around me – nature, low pollution, etc. Those places also tend to be easier to connect to our Source, to silence.
However, what does it the most for me, is creation, conversation and connection.
Connection to people, animals, nature, but this could still also be connection to people’s creation – arts, music, even architecture or things people have created.
It is in creation, conversation and connection through love and compassion that I feel most amazing, and IN my power. It is there I feel most alive, most present and most love. So why the hell wouldn’t I be doing that full time! 🙂
So that will be my purpose here.
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My Wish For You
Like I spoke about previously, my greatest wish to you is exactly the same as the greatest wish for myself.
It is the most loving thing I can do for myself, and by extension, everybody else.
Feeling fully alive, being in a state of love/compassion, being fully present and truly connecting (to everything).
Let me make it clear, that this is not about viewing everything through rosy lovey-dovey glasses. Clear discernment has to be made when one is acting or observing from a place of truth (real self), versus acting from a place of misalignment with truth. And the latter has to be called out.
i.e. when are we doing something out of genuine authenticity and when are we doing it for something other than who/what we are (out of ego, out of external validation seeking, out of a story we try to make ourselves believe to feel superficially better about ourself).
Understanding and compassion do NOT mean acceptance of certain behaviours.
Often time a bit of direct confrontational love is the expression of love that is needed the most.
A metaphorical slap in the face or a kick up our ass is what we sometimes need the most.
The stronger we are attached to whatever idea, sense of identity, belief or whatever else we hold onto, the more resistance this is faced when confronted, the more work that needs to be done to remove this blind spot.
We also tend to face most resistance from those closest to us, but that is also where most growth lies, but that is material for a future post.
Ultimately, the deeper motivation (in my opinion) has to come from a place of love or compassion.
So let me wish you!
I wish for you to connect to your power within,
…the warrior within
…that strength, drive and energy you have within.
The love within you
…the light within you
…the strength within you.
The truth within you…
…that which is most true at the deepest level to you.
The clarity within you.
… that which comes from your all-knowing inner wisdom .
To feel fully alive, fully present, fully connected, to the beauty that is You and the Universe.
The coming weeks I will be sharing more lessons and insights on how to connect to this power. I will also be leading a few small-scale intimate retreats where we will go deep into reconnecting to the REAL you, to strength that relationship to yourself to others, and to create your own dream relationships, message, life!
So stay tuned! 🙂
P.S. My DM’s are always open.